Last night….

I opened my eyes….

They were moist,

Maybe from last night’s moaning!

I looked around,

There towards my right….,

Was a big window,

With a bright blue spotted curtain

Drawn apart fully!

The morning rays seeping in,

Reminded me of Tyndall effect!

I wished,

I wasn’t alone!

I re-winded my memory….

Something I shouldn’t have done….

But, sometimes….

Our mind is automated!

It fast-forwards

And re-winds certain situations….

Which we try to forget!

Last night…. Was one!

I was the same still,

Something stirred in me,

Something I shouldn’t have

Given a second look!

I felt something piercing me,

Trying to look up….

I found someone ,

Playing with my feeble hands!

Smile was one,

I always tried to give out!

But now,

It seemed a hard thing to do!

My jaws didn’t seem to budge!

I felt dizzy,

Out there was another being,

A wispy haired….

Dark coloured man!

He seemed odd!

I enquired about him,

But I was given a reply….

“You’re hallucinating”!

I was startled by a sound,

Turning towards the window,

I saw a sparrow,

A bleeding bird….!

Its fur looked aweful,

Just as if it was electrified!

I felt pathetic,

It resembled a young woman,

Who once had the most….

Beautiful hair,

But lost it….!

It resembled myself….!

I saw myself the same way,

Last night!

With patched of shaved scalp

Here and there!

Silky and lustrous hair was replaced

By few frizzy strands!

My once-shining scalp

Had turned sore and pale,

Cos’ of the radiations!

I longed to brush my hair,

With my long fingers!

I barely had the strength,

To look myself into the mirror….

Last night!

But what I saw was the worst,

I could witness!

I looked different….

It wasn’t me!

The bird was going to die,

I longed to hold it….

To preserve….

Its life,

Its soul!

It was madly hitting,

Against the window!

I saw it wince in pain,

I heard its screech!

It gave a huge cry….

Till it fell motionless….

Lifeless….

Onto the window sill!

I felt a sudden turmoil in me….

Like…. a boat losing its control,

During a rough weather!

Like…. a someone sucking up my soul!

I felt a pressure,

I had seen it die….

I knew its pain!

I…. I understood….

I was on the verge of dying!

I realized I couldn’t

Bear the pain of dying,

Not because I was a coward….

But I longed to stay alive….

I yearned to live more!

I had to run many more miles,

I had to conquer heights!

I was leaving everything behind,

I didn’t want to succumb

To any illness!

I was just 27,

I wasn’t just a young woman,

But also a mother….

Of a 6 month old baby!

I longed….

To hold and caress her,

To kiss on her puny toes,

To shield her in my warmth!

The pleasure….

When she sucked milk from my nipples,

Made me satisfied and content….

In every terms as….a mother!

It stopped when I was forbided

To do so….

I longed to breastfeed her!

I was enjoying motherhood….

Until the disaster happened!

I couldn’t bear the pain….

In me!

It was increasing!

I felt canon balls being shot

At me!

My lips started getting dry,

My lungs gasped for oxygen,

My voice quavered and

My throat cracked, while

I started sweating profusely!

People started rushing around me,

I was fitted with useless wires….

Meters and an oxygen mask!

Docters began checking my pulse,

My heart beat….

Everything reached its zenith!

I couldn’t waste much time!

I indicated,

That I longed to see my baby….

One last time!!!!

A the nurse opened the door,

To inform my bystanders….

The dark coloured man returned!

He seemed odd,

With his emotionless looks….

And heavy robes!

He reached out his cold hand,

And grappled my arm!

I felt like the boat finally,

Crashing onto a rock,

And submerging into the sea!

I became….

Terribly weak!

He started sucking up….my soul!

I …. gasped for breath….!

And as I gave him a last look,

When he turned his back,

I could see myself on his shoulders,

Eyes closed….

Motionless….

And lifeless!

Everything else seemed slow paced….

Docs continued giving me CPR….

I gave out a heavy sigh

And breathed my last!